Today is the day

So today I go in to hospital at 8:30 am and lets get this party started. I am so scared. I scared of the pain. I’m scared of the recovery. I. scared to fail….

 

I am so excited to change my life. I’m so excited to change my path. I’m so excited to change my fate. I am so excited to be the woman I am suppose to be. The mother I’m suppose to be.

Here we go.

Skinny Girl in hidding

I have been absent for so long here… So many reasons… The biggest changes in the crazy house in April 2016 my beloved Nana died. I struggle everyday with this lose. I will wright about this soon. The other main change in the crazy house is on September 9th 2016 I underwent Weight Lose Surgery. I had a procedure called the gastric sleeve.

My weight has been a constant struggle for the past 20 years. My highest weight has been 280. At 5’3″ I would say I have been am pretty unsuccessful for the last ten years.

What major thing happened to push me to make this change? In April after my Nana died one of my best friends said lets get away and we took a girls trip to Las Vegas. I had tons of fun BUT I was the biggest girl there. My ankles hurt, my knees hurt. my heart hurt. I was not living my life to the fullest. When I past a mirror or saw a picture of myself I would cringe and ask myself “who is that girl”.

The truth is that girl was a sad, lonely, unhappy person. The time had come to make a change and not a crash diet or short term fix but a life change.

I came home on May 15th and its like a light came on in my head. I need my insides to fit my outsides. So with that I decided no more fast food, no more chips no more crap. Over the last four months I have lost 40 pounds. So many people have noticed and it feels great. I also started working out at crossfit and I feel so strong.

I decided in July I wanted to have the gastric sleeve procedure. The sad part is bue to my BMI I do not meet the requirements to have it covered. It was a lot of discussion, a lot of heartache, tons of tears but we decided to be self pay and make this procedure a reality.

The weeks leading up to the surgery have been so scary.

I’m scared for so many reasons. I’m scared to fail. I’m scared of loose skin. I’m scared the message I’m sending my kids but none of these fears out weigh the benefits.

I want this WLS for my kids too. I do not want to be the fat mom. Or have them ashamed I am their mother. I want my outside to match my inside. I want to look how I think I look and I want to feel good. I want to run and play and keep up with my kids. I do not want to die because I am too fat.

Why is food so mental for me? I hate it! tomorrow my life will change forever.

Super Networker!!!

Those that know me IRL know I am busy! Busy with my kids, my home, the community and my business Origami Owl -Check me out here! One aspect of business is networking. I love to learn from others, talk about business and do all I can to make connections. Well this baby has not stopped me in that. He is already a professional networker! LOL So cute!
Here =we are at two meetings we’ve had this month:
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limits

This is the first year I have not hosted a Christmas even party for friends and the kiddos. I am a bit sad about this. I miss my friends, I miss my friends out west Sad smile But I am so happy the baby is here and I just can’t push my limits.

Happy Birthday Tator Tot!

We went into the OB appointment on Tuesday 12/17 to find my blood pressure was 162/92… so yep they sent me into the hospital. I was scheduled to be induce on Thursday 12/19 so they just decided to do it a few days early. I arrived at the hospital at 6:30pm to find I was centimeters dilated with mild irregular contractions. They decided to monitor my BP throughout the night and make some decisions in the morning. At 7am I was still 3cms, it was decided that I would start Pitocin. At 10am I was at 4 cms but the OB wanted to break my water. After set up and start of that I decided to stop them and get the epidural. This was not on my plan. I did not want the epidural but my anxiety level was increasing, even though this is my third baby I was finding it very scary. My nerves were extremely high and after speaking to my hubby and best friend we all decided it was the right choice for me. I was very nervous because I truly believe the epidural with MD was the reason she got stick and had her clavicle broken. The OB and nurses were all aware of that and were wonderful about making sure this did not happen again. So at 10:30am I get the epidural. The Doctor that did that was very nice and explained everything he was doing and it went as well as can be expected. But happened though was my blood pressure dropped far down and fast. Because my body had been running a high BP for the past 48 hours (averaging 160/90) and then for the past month or so averaging about 140/88 the fast drop made me very sick. I was very dizzy, started vomiting and seeing spots. Very unpleasant. The doctor gave me some medicine to stop those things and got me stable after about an hour. At 11:30am they broke my water. Even though I was completely numb there was a tremendous amount of pressure. The doctor even said it would have been very unpleasant if I had not done the epidural. There was a lot of water but it was all clear so that was good. I spent the next five hour in and out of a sleep state. I was comfortable but still somewhat dizzy and sick feeling. I could feel the sensations of the contractions but not in any pain. At 4:30pm we began pushing as I had reached 10 cms. With my husband, mother and sister in the room supporting me after about maybe eight pushes our sweet NP entered this world at 4:59pm. He is perfect.

4:59pm, 6.6 lbs

12/18/2013, 4:59pm, 6.6 lbs


The day was overall a huge success. Our nurse Marisa was amazing. Nurses just do not get the recognition they deserve. She was calm, professional and supportive. She explained every step of the way. She answered all of my questions and comforted me when I was just beside myself with fear and second guessing myself. She was in control of the room and I felt very comfortable with her. She was closely monitoring the level of my epidural to ensure I felt the right amount of sensation to know I was pushing effectively and really listened to me about my concerns and got me what I needed. Our OB was equally as calm and in control. I was very happy with my care for labor and delivery. Everything went as good as it could have and there were no complications.
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The Sweet is never as sweet without the sour…..

This weekend I had my final Origami Owl party of the season. (you can still email or message me with orders Smile )
But with my due date fast approaching on the 19th it was time to let others around me help. I was very lucky that at both my shows this weekend I had a team member wanting to shadow me for back up and at the third one when I was just not up to it physically a team member who stepped in and took it over. This company has brought so much joy to our lives. I have met some of the nicest people and now have the honor of working with some of the hardest working and caring people I have ever met too. This company has also brought financial stability to our family. This Christmas has been a cash only Christmas, with some to spare. In fact just this morning my hubby said he was going to swing by a store to get our daughter something he saw online and just like that it was fine, no worrying about do we have the funds for the extra gift.
 
I know there are other factors in this but what has had the major impact is O2. The other emotion this weekend brought was this sweet, baby will be here in about 10 days or less. It seems like just yesterday we were still hoping and wishing but the time is here. I feel so very lucky to be carrying this life inside of me. I can not wait to see his face and welcome him to this world. It will be one year ago on 12/12 that we lost our last baby. That loss shook me to my core, making me question so many things. I am so very thankful I did not give up. Without that sad, sad loss we would not have sweet baby NP about to make his appearance. I guess the saying the sweet can not be as sweet without the sour. That is so true in this case. This baby is so loved and wanted.
I can’t wait to meet you baby ❤

Every mom

Oh My Heck this cracks me up!!! So funny and true!

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