I had to smile

I love that I have a friend who without fail is ALWAYS the very first Christmas card every year! It reminds and makes me miss living close to her. Just seeing the envolope in the box make me giggle, really puts a smile on my face everytime! I miss those lazy mornings where the end product didn’t matter but the process was what counted. How just by being in her company along with a select other few … and you know who you are…we could simply be on a friend high (that and the coffee). The kind of joy that makes your cheeks hurt and you find you have shared far to deep of secrets just because you know they won’t tell. Thank you MR you totally are the merriest! Now and forever… GTFs!!!

BFFs

Having a core group of friends and a best friend out West (and a childhood best friend in the South) I am very lucky. When I moved back to the South five years ago with my childhood BFF in another town I felt very alone. What is worse about this alone then when I moved to the West was I already had a core group (The Good Time Friends) who I felt I needed to be true to. The GTFs went out to dinner, playgroups, hung out, went on trips and told countless secrets. We were a tight group. So when I moved here I had a very hard time making friends. I had guilt issues…. I had best friends. Well after five years and the GFTs scattered to the wind I was left with one BFF in the West who I love dearly. She is my BFF who saw me through ALL the mommy first. She was even there in the room when my sweet angel MD was born. She kept me sane when I thought said sweet angel might have been a miscalculation on my part. She knows me inside and out and loves me despite all of my short comings. She truly knows me for the good, bad and the ugly. And a BFF in the South who I also love dearly but far away. She is my childhood BFF. She saw me through all the wild days and there were some wild days! She knows just how crazy I can be and she loves me anyway. She too knows me inside and out and loves me despite my short comings.

About a year ago I finally let my guard down. I am not an easy girl to really get to know and once that happens not the easiest girl to be best friends with. I have tried to force friendships in the past and it never quite works out like I want. Well like I said about a year ago I really clicked with K. It was just a friendship that came with an ease and comfort I did not have to try or force. It was a feeling I thought I would not feel again after the GTFs. Then about six months ago L joined my little circle. I really liked her from the start and again this odd ease I didn’t trust at first came whenever I spoke to her. Last came J & J. The first J is like my long lost sister. We share so many likes and dislikes it’s a bit scary to be honest. And the second J, she was a bit harder but once I got to know her I am so glad I put the effort into her. She is worth the time because now I can’t imagine not being her friend. I am so glad to be these girl’s friends. This does not mean I do not love my Southern and Western BFFs it just means I am so very lucky.

Here we are today at Breakfast for L’s birthday. Starting new traditions and sharing new secrets. Here’s to the Tampa GTFs: Sami, Izzy, Mia, Lola, and Frankie!

And More Trips

Well my trip to Phoenix was a success! Tons of fun was had, more food then I wish to admit was consumed and talks into the wee hours of the night was shared. It made me realize just how much I miss one of my BFFs! It was hard leaving and I looked like a total freak as I cried for about an hour while I waited to board my plane to go home. She reminded me she is just a phone call away and that is true. I also miss my old home town, while it was hot it was a dry heat it is so very different then the heat here in the South. We had a fun time the four days I was there and the trip ended with a cool concert where we saw Night Ranger, Foreigner and Journey. (Journey was my favorite). It rained on us for about the last half hour but I thought it added to the experience. Plus I got to stand by her super hot brother the whole time!!

Trips!

This month has been a whirl wind already!!! My mom has a wonderful friend who owns a cabin in the Georgia Mountains in a little town called Dahlonega (near Helen). She sent us there with well wishes and a huge binder filled with local activities and restaurants! The only part of the trip that was a bit unnerving was the last bit of the drive up the mountain was a one car lane road. So if another car was coming the other direction someone had to back up until there was a turn off from that main drive. Luckily the two times that happened the other car did the backing up but it was a bit tense.

It was just my mom, me and the two kids. I was a bit worried because we would not have TV or computers for the kids or the Wii to keep the little ones busy… But omh! The kids were going from sun up to sun down and then some!

We panned for gold and gems. Not too much gold was found but the gemming proved to be very prolific. Then we started to take a tour of the mine. I say started because about 10 minutes into our perfectly safe guided descend into the mine, MD flipped out. She got dizzy, pale and said she was going to throw up. She is truly my child, the slightest bit of something being “off” and we can’t seem to handle it. So to JM chagrin we turned around and headed back to the surface. He is still complaining he wants to know what is “down there”.

The next day we went tubing. And oh my that was a hoot. To start with we were in about ankle deep water. JM realized this after he “fell” out of his tube accidentally on purpose, freaked out and was told to just stand up. After a chuckle he said “oh ok” and got back into his tube to continue to “float” down stream. My mom was scared of going too close to the sides of the river in fear of snakes and MD just wanted to face the front. We were all tethered together so someone was almost always facing backwards. My butt kept dragging the bottom and if it hadn’t been so very funny my fat ego would have been bruised. We must have been quite the site to be seen.

The next day we went to a state park. Hiked a mile to a pretty water fall and then hiked back down. At the bottom we found a nice spot and the kids were able to cool off in the creek splashing around. We found many river rocks to bring home to daddy. The kids took a bit of convincing to get in and get wet but MD finally decided it was fun. JM never really got over the sliminess of a creek. I guess my kids are just too spoiled by the Gulf beaches and sandy white shores to truly appreciate the loveliness of a creek. The best part of that day is there was almost no one else around. Just a few people on the hike but none at the creek. It was as if we were all alone in a forest. I could really get use to that!

The next day we explored the small downtown Dahlonega area. Now this really consists of a small square lined with shops and small diner style restaurants. I did manage to spend more money then I wanted but it was fun. The local homemade fudge shop was visited on more then one occasion I must admit.

We also visited Cleveland, GA… Now what is special about that you may wonder…. The Cabbage Patch BabyLand General Hospital that’s what! That was a ton of fun for the girls (by girls I mean me, my mom and MD). We signed in at the hospital and spoke to the nurses and MD was able to adopt a baby and name her. While we were there we witnessed a “live” birth. That was somewhat cool. JM who was grumbling the entire time was delighted when the baby boy was “born” and a name was asked for. We hollered out JM and the Nurse said yes that is a perfect name for this little guy. It brought a smile to my “little guy” to know a baby was in the hospital named after him. I almost wanted to buy it for him but changed my mind remembering it was after all just a doll. All in all it was a fun experience.

The last day we hiked around the cabin and to the creek below. Now I don’t know if I was just tired from a full week or if that hike really was harder then the rest but this one near took it all out of me. I was never so thankful to be back inside as I was at the end of that hike. That one took all I had left.

Then on the drive home we made a small detour to Atlanta to their historic district to a small sweet shop called “The Pie Hole” a homemade pie shop. Very small and cute!!! I have a friend who was “in need” of a Rhubarb pie and I wanted to bring this to her.

All in all a very full and exciting trip!

I got home Sunday night just in time to pack my bags again! Tomorrow I am off for a first ever trip alone. I am off to visit one of my BFFs back in Arizona. I am very nervous about the plane ride. But armed with a few free drink coupons (thanks K) and a prescription of as my mom likes to call them “fly pills” I think I will be ok. I am excited to see the place I associate with my children’s babyhood, our old neighborhood and the best of all one of my BFFs S! She is the best! I speak to her almost everyday. Despite leaving Phoenix over four years ago our friendship is stronger then most girls I see in person on a regular basis. Other then the fact I don’t actually “see” her it is as if nothing has changed too much. It is a bit strange to have friends each doesn’t even know but I suppose in our own sort of time capsule we remain the same. It is a friendship that is irreplaceable. She is one of the few people that truly knows me and loves me anyway. She has seen the ugly side of me and accepts me. And even more shockingly she has seen my corny optimistic “Bee positive” side and takes that too with a grain of salt as well.

We share many of the same struggles but mostly I think we just “get” each other and that is what counts. I look forward to when we are trading grandchildren stories and pictures. Ok I can not put off packing any longer. I’m off to the desert!

Friends

I know I haven’t updated the book section of my blog in a v.e.r.y. long time but I have still been reading. Not as much as I once was and not as much as I would like but I am still reading. I got a Nook from Barnes and Noble and I really enjoy it but there is something about holding a book in your hands. I friend let me borrow a book she had. It called Wednesday Sisters by Meg Waite Clayton. I am almost finished with it and I like it in a bitter sweet way. It’s about a group of friends and their journey through life in a nutshell. I like it because it is sweet and uplifting but bitter in that I miss my group of friends out West. I have somehow not been able to form the same kinds of relationships here and it is so sad to me. I wish I know what was wrong and why I can’t seem to make meaningful friendships. Don’t get me wrong I have friends here but not that sisterhood kind of bond I had before. I wonder if a person only gets that lucky once in a lifetime.  I miss you GTFs……

magnets

I know life has been quiet around here lately but that is always the case after National Blogging Month. I have had a big month so far. My lifestyle change with food has been an up and down process but I think I am winning more days then not so that is a positive. I have to go to the doctors tomorrow and I have an appointment on the 22end with a nutritionist.
Over the past two weeks I have been crafting again and I forgot just how much I love it and how fulfilling it is to create with my hands. I made my girlfriends a small token for Christmas. I made them each a set of magnets. I still need to spray paint the Altoid boxes I plan to gift them in.
 
For their children I made a small drawing journals inspired by my friend in Arizona. I am very happy with how they turned out!  I included colored pencils. I made MD one and she has already been very busy making pictures. They are coming over next Wednesday to decorate Santa cookies, make a Christmas craft and have lunch. This is a tradition I did every year in AZ on Christmas Eve. I am hoping this will start a new tradition here.

I am finding myself much more relaxed these days. I have resigned all but one of my varies volunteer positions. I have stayed on with JM’s Boy Scouts Den because I really do love that one. But one day I just realized why am I killing myself doing all these “jobs” for people who don’t appreciate it. The cherry on top was I was not enjoying myself. So just like that I have quit and that’s that.

I am not big on New Year resolutions but I think I am making one this year for the first time in a very long time. So my resolution will be; to do what and only what makes me happy. I need to take care of myself. I need to spend time with my family. This is the time I will get back to crafting and making my body and soul strong.

Ok so I hope to post again before Christmas but if I don’t have a good one because I know I will be!!!

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