This is the first year I have not hosted a Christmas even party for friends and the kiddos. I am a bit sad about this. I miss my friends, I miss my friends out west Sad smile But I am so happy the baby is here and I just can’t push my limits.
22 Dec 2013 Leave a comment
Chronicles of the first time mother of three.
Thing people don’t tell you…. The thing about that is it goes back to the whole levels of remembering… What I mean is as things are happening with this new baby, I am actually surprised and shocked… Like why did I not remember when the professionals break ones water during labor… its not pleasant. Or after baby comes every time you nurse (so far anyway) ones uterus contracts and the pain is horrible… or the bleeding… oh my the bleeding… And now that my milk has come in, which I am so happy about, but the leaking.. I am just constantly dripping…
Thankfully unlike the last baby though no baby blues, just an almost painful feeling of love and happiness. So happy about that Smile
Ok I am sure there will be more “why didn’t I remember that?!?” moments to come…
20 Dec 2013 Leave a comment
Ok so let me explain the new tag: “Chronicles of the first time mother of three” I sort of felt this way through out my pregnancy but oh my how I really felt it during labor and delivery and with each passing moment with my newborn NP I am feeling it more and more. This feeling of “what am I doing
?” not why did I decide to have another baby but more of a feeling why can’t I remember how to do this…. Even though I have done this not once (JM 11yrs) but twice (MD 9yrs) its as if I have never done this whole “mothering “ thing before.
I use to think when people would say “oh you forget” about the details of labor either were lying about their labor experience or just dumb. I remember both my older children’s births why can’t they?
What I have realized is there are levels of remembering. Level one complete denial and embellishment. Level two remembering enough to tell your birth story and Level three as to say yep it happened and “it really wasn’t that bad”
I think most moms fall into the level two, we think we remember. We think we are telling our birth story and we are… but we have forgotten so many actual details. The main detail I am speaking about is the pain!
With my first baby 11 years ago in my current memory It was the most perfect experience. No drugs, water broke naturally, three pushes and he was out. The birds were singing sun was shining. Pain level was mild but nothing too bad.
With my second baby I decided to get the epidural, leading to in my mind ineffective pushing leading to her getting stuck on the way out resulting in an a broken clavicle bone.
pain was zero but the experience was stressful and scary.
I wanted to get this the third baby experience down as soon as possible as I am sure the forgetting fairy takes a little bit with every nap and rest I sneak in until I will be saying “oh it really wasn’t that bad” to a pregnant friend.
18 Dec 2013 Leave a comment
We went into the OB appointment on Tuesday 12/17 to find my blood pressure was 162/92… so yep they sent me into the hospital. I was scheduled to be induce on Thursday 12/19 so they just decided to do it a few days early. I arrived at the hospital at 6:30pm to find I was centimeters dilated with mild irregular contractions. They decided to monitor my BP throughout the night and make some decisions in the morning. At 7am I was still 3cms, it was decided that I would start Pitocin. At 10am I was at 4 cms but the OB wanted to break my water. After set up and start of that I decided to stop them and get the epidural. This was not on my plan. I did not want the epidural but my anxiety level was increasing, even though this is my third baby I was finding it very scary. My nerves were extremely high and after speaking to my hubby and best friend we all decided it was the right choice for me. I was very nervous because I truly believe the epidural with MD was the reason she got stick and had her clavicle broken. The OB and nurses were all aware of that and were wonderful about making sure this did not happen again. So at 10:30am I get the epidural. The Doctor that did that was very nice and explained everything he was doing and it went as well as can be expected. But happened though was my blood pressure dropped far down and fast. Because my body had been running a high BP for the past 48 hours (averaging 160/90) and then for the past month or so averaging about 140/88 the fast drop made me very sick. I was very dizzy, started vomiting and seeing spots. Very unpleasant. The doctor gave me some medicine to stop those things and got me stable after about an hour. At 11:30am they broke my water. Even though I was completely numb there was a tremendous amount of pressure. The doctor even said it would have been very unpleasant if I had not done the epidural. There was a lot of water but it was all clear so that was good. I spent the next five hour in and out of a sleep state. I was comfortable but still somewhat dizzy and sick feeling. I could feel the sensations of the contractions but not in any pain. At 4:30pm we began pushing as I had reached 10 cms. With my husband, mother and sister in the room supporting me after about maybe eight pushes our sweet NP entered this world at 4:59pm. He is perfect.
The day was overall a huge success. Our nurse Marisa was amazing. Nurses just do not get the recognition they deserve. She was calm, professional and supportive. She explained every step of the way. She answered all of my questions and comforted me when I was just beside myself with fear and second guessing myself. She was in control of the room and I felt very comfortable with her. She was closely monitoring the level of my epidural to ensure I felt the right amount of sensation to know I was pushing effectively and really listened to me about my concerns and got me what I needed. Our OB was equally as calm and in control. I was very happy with my care for labor and delivery. Everything went as good as it could have and there were no complications.
09 Dec 2013 Leave a comment