It’s funny how music can bring you back to a specific point in time almost instantly. How old feelings can boil to the surface in moments and almost trance like the memory plays out in your mind. My first slow dance was in my parent’s bedroom (on summer break they were at work) with Scotty Pomiroy and we danced to Black Velvet. My first kiss Bon Jovi’s I’ll be there for you was playing and when I heard Everything I do I do for you by Bryan Adams I mistakenly took it as a sign to go thru with another first…….
Most any dirt rock band will bring me right back to the Firehouse, a bar. I can almost smell the cigarettes and hear the darts being tossed. The Counting Crows really brings Izzy, Joe, Bo, Cindy and of course Shelly to my mind. The song Omaha and Around Here the most and Colorblind always makes me that sick sad. But that was a good time for me. A sense of community or a bond of losers I don’t know? To badly quote the Matrics “Humans are defined by their suffering”.
When I hear Spider Webs by No Doubt I think about getting ready to party. How I cringe at any Ace of Base song because it bring back horrible memories of John Worrel. Tori Amos marks a coming of age for me. Most all her songs reminded me of moving out on my own one. Her songs Leather and Happy Phantom in particular. Maybe it represents a sexual control for me. The first time I was in control of absolutely everything around me. Breaking free becoming a woman.
Then there is the freedom of dancing starting way back when with the Violent Femmes, Skatenigs, Nine Inch Nails and Rage Against Machine. I remember my first night at the club DNA. I was sixteen on an ID that said I was eighteen. Shel and I watched the melodic dancers swaying to the gothic music spilling out into the air. We looked at each other and said “how do they do that”? Quickly we learned. It was very different from the techno club we were frequenting before (the Red Zone) and the moves were a world and culture away from dancing to Shawnta’ and Vanity 6.
Jewel’s Near You Always closes that chapter in my life. Jewel was just coming out when I meet John. I remember I got some bootleg copy of a copy of hers and played it until it broke. He laughed and said I’d never hear her on the radio. I guess he was wrong.
I have always loved music and love a wide range. Billy Joel reminds me of being a child. I remember trying to swing to the sky while singing Uptown girl in my parents backyard. Or skating on our living room tile floor before dad came home from work just yelling Freeze Frame. I wonder if my mother even remembers that? I do.
So music has always played a big part of my life and emotions. When I think of my life now I am currently in love with Jack Johnson and Laurie Berkner. I know in years to come when I think of these songs I will think of my children little and beautiful. I wonder what they will think of? I am notorious for belting out songs by Frank Sinatra and Johnny Cash (Aren’t they sweet!!!). My kids love it when Call me Al by Paul Simon plays as it is always a sight to be seem. Off key but with heart!
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